(Inspired by Minister Antonia Parker aka Mother Spirit/Wilson, NC)
Life can often throw curve balls at us & can really give us a run for our money if we are not careful. Dealing with issues of life, our co-workers, supervisors, our family, death of loved ones, financial situations, personal issues; etc can all began to wear on us IF we let it.
See the Bible tells us to cast all of our cares on the Lord & trust Him to direct our paths. It is time out for us to stop trying to fix things on our own. We must give ourselves completely over unto the Lord & trust Him wholeheartedly to take care of us & to fulfill the plan He has for our lives.
How many of you have experienced a trial & felt as if you literally almost died trying to come out? I have been there several times, by struggling with my identity, battling low self esteem, & just feeling unworthy due to the many times I have messed up. But one thing I have learned is that feelings come & go, & our emotions can often change like the weather. We can be feeling one way one day or one moment, then another way a few seconds later.
Joyce Meyer speaks very openly about the importance of managing our emotions & not being led by them but being led by the Holy Spirit.
Recently, I experienced a trial that left me feeling worthless, & tempted me to doubt God & all that I desire for Him to do in my life. I experienced these feelings for a few days & then I grew tired of basically entertaining them & had to get into the Word of God & be reminded of who I am in Him. Because see, we are not what or who people say we are, but we are who God says we are & we are BUILT TO LAST in spite of what the enemy designs to strangle & choke the very life out of us & we are GOING TO MAKE IT!
The Word of God says when the enemy comes in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord will lift up a standard against it, & it won’t prosper! So, we are not to fear what Satan says or throws our way but we are to trust the Lord to work ALL things out for our good (Romans 8:28).
I honestly remember feeling as if when men see me all they see is my beauty but they don’t see my heart because it appeared as if every man I met (whether they were saved or not, but sadly to say it has more so been men in the church) only wanted sex, & I know I am so much better than that. However, Satan began to have a field day with my mind & began to tell me how lonely I was & that I should go back to my previous lifestyle (homosexuality) & that no man would ever love me or treat me as I deserve. But say this aloud with me: THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!
I speak boldly today against the spirit of homosexuality & there is no devil in hell that will send me back to Egypt into bondage after all the hell I have had to go through to get out. It’s hard to go back to Egypt once you have experienced Eden! One thing I know is that if I have to pray day & night, & night & day, if I have to walk alone, then that’s what I will do until the Lord says otherwise. I have tears in my eyes while I type this because I can’t write about anything other than REAL LIFE situations & what better person to use other than myself? I stand on behalf of every woman that has ever had a struggle & are fighting with all that’s within you to remain free from all God has delivered you from! Even to my brothers that have battled this spirit there is a way out! You must continue to fight to remain free & become dead to the situation! Doesn’t mean Satan will ever leave you alone in that particular area for he is always looking for a weak moment so that’s why we must be rooted & grounded in Jesus! My walk is so crucial for I can’t afford to have a weak moment because I truly believe that after all God has done in my life that if I go back this time I won’t make it back alive, & I will forfeit my purpose & I am not willing to slap God in His face by going back to the very thing He has delivered me from. How many of you will stand with me? Is it hard? Yes! But is it worth it? Yes!! We must focus on the bigger picture versus how we are feeling in one moment. Our life is depended upon every decision we make. TRUE success if fulfilling the purpose in which God created you for not how big your house is or how much money you make, for when we leave we can’t take any of it with us anyway!!
Tears are streaming but I want to encourage you today that no matter what you are dealing with, FIGHT!!! Fight to make it! Fight to come out! Praise your way out! Pray your way out! For trust me, once you overcome this, it will make overcoming that much easier!
Be encouraged & hold your head up high for things are getting better already & as my Pastor, Apostle Elijah Forte’ says often: GOD IS WORKING, SO WHY ARE YOU STANDING STILL? (pause/ponder/then get to moving!)